Hi guys. im back again writing my thoughts at 7;18AM,,,, this blog is just a passing thought that i think i should write it here because i knew once school starts, it would be hard for me to write down all my thoughts.

Honestly kan, im not satisfied enough with my grammar… I want my English full of bombastic words, it might sounds cower a little bit but its the truth, i think its one of my ‘azam’ to replacing common words with more infrequent alternative like saying “petrified” instead of “very scared” or “sympathetic” for “kind”. Hopefully when SPM either trial or UPTSA i already improvice my english exactly how i want it to be.

Talking about SPM, id be lying if i say i didnt want 9A’s on my SPM… I already have so much in mind what i do after i finish my highschool BUT THATS DOESNT MATTER FOR NOW,, this year all i want to think about is SPM. I mean who doesnt ?

I always dream to get straight A’s but the question “bolehke ni” lingering in my mind every single night before i went to sleep ever since 2026 even starts aproaching. The process to get my dream result is actually yang susah and i think that is my ‘azam’ because i want to change myself to become more discipline. I hope the pressure is pressure-ing. i hope i cried about how hard chemistry is, i hope my life in 2026 is full of strictness and all i want to stress about is studying.

One of my weirdest ‘azam’ that i found funny is i want to sleep at 10PM… yes, go ahead and chuckle, critics my azam all you want because it is the the reality that i really do want to sleep at 10 or paling lambat pun 11 la because hey,, i genuinely crave for that peaceful and pleasant sleep after a tiring day and especially after school. Nevertheless, my sleeping schedule is soooo teruk RIGHTNOW like wdym i sleep at 8 or 9 in the morning and wakeup at 4 which feels soooooooooo out of sync with the world. Actually its not something to expose so i dont blame you guys for judging.

Did you guys know that im also into piano ? I dont know why i feel like i want to play music instrument such as piano as something to play with during my free time instead of playing with my phone. We all know that once we touch our gadget then it would be hard for us to stop because its addicting and thats the reason why i want to play piano. Its great to have something like piano to turn to especially since i find it calming and enjoyable. Music means a lot to me (i really have to stop listening to music) and i truly feel a sense of comfort whenever i listened to them.

Last but not least, i really wish that i can capture photos and videos with my highschool friends as much as i can because i love collecting memories and reminiscing them in the future. I brought a handycam lastmonths and i believe that i would use it to capture every single moments i had with my friends. I will forever ingat my life as form5 students in school. I cannot wait to live in my life that i want to cherish forever.

And i guess thats all for niow, ive had a feelings that i might be problematic this year in school because ITS MY LAST YEAR and let me just be what i want to be. I honestly cannot wait to go to school to met all of my friends and experiencing SPM journey together with them. Thankyou for reading everyone, au revoir .